Murray Vs The World

I mean I’m kinda being forced to show affection but honestly I don’t want to return it because I take time to grow feelings. And theirs so many others that’s in line but yet in still not sure what moves to make so I’m stuck guessing but I don’t wanna guess because thy shows I’m not sure on what I want. But how I been recently is busy with work and when I come home I get right on my xbox lol but it’s funny how some the girls I talk to act like we go out and always expect me to call them, and when u don’t they get mad lol I mean come on ref lol.

I’m no longer that guy that always talk on the phone because it’s a waste of time and plus the convo end up getting dry. So heads up don’t get mad when I speak my mind about whatever! Well I’m typing on the train cause this is on my mind soo yeahh

I just have a gut feeling that someone is going to show their face or I’m going to hear a voice. Rejection is going to be the part I play, I’m keeping this post short and simple!! Goodnight Friends

Now this is the phone that I had my eyes on!!! I already put the phone and plan in a shopping cart online so when I get paid on whatever day this week! I’m going to Overnight express the mailing and I would be set and ready to be contacted! And now all my friends can kick rocks and can no longer crack jokes on me about not having a phone lol. Yeah i said it!!! KICK ROCKS!!! But let me not jinx it because something really unnecessary can happen! but yess this is the phone that I will be obtaining in a couple of days … . Hopefully lol

Ok now the reason why I haven’t been on Tumblr that much is because one. I’ve been working, two I’ve been in love with my Xbox and Final Fantasy and last but not least MUSIC!!!!! I can tell that I progressed in my music because I’m putting more thought and time into these new songs. And I must say that they are coming out amazing and I’m not saying that just because I wrote it, im saying it cause I can tell. 

And for this project I’m going out my way to promote it! I’m looking into making a album cover for it, do some shows with the songs that’s on there and also make sure its super perfected! For the last projects I did. As for “Hip Hop’s New Era” to “Hackin’ Tha System” those were projects to basically show people what I can do, but as for this new project! I’m showing people that I’m dead ass serious about this music thing. And I’m not doing this rap thing because everyone is doing it, I’m doing this because it’s in my heart! Music is forever in my mind no matter where I’m going or doing. 

Work been keeping me busy because I’m working on having a cell phone so all my friends can shut up about contacting me lol it’s starting to get annoying so I have to shut them up already and as for the Xbox. It’s just been keeping me from online because Final Fantasy is neglecting me from everyone lol. But with this job, I’m going to make sure I have everything I’ve been needing when I didn’t have a job. And when I get the things I’ve been needing, its going to be a very long saving session until I start college back in VA. But yeah mannn no stressful crap or emotions been effecting me so thats the MAIN!!! real reason why I haven’t been on here. I just haven’t had anything to talk about in the past month because I recovered from all that. So yeah mannnn look out for my new project! I will promise to keep you guys and ladies updated!!!

The man above is looking out for me because ever since I got out my relationship things been working out!! Maybe he was showing me that I don’t need anyone to help me live, or move on not staying with a person that don’t know how to take care of themselves. Just got the call from my manager and she asked if I would like to be supervisor and you know that I aceppted that offer because that’s progression. My parents were proud, and that’s all I ever wanted to do!!!! I was never asked to be a supervisor for a job because I didn’t think i had it in me.

So for the man above I thank u so much to be looking after me and making me stronger from what happen in the past!! And I will make sure things remind and only get better!!

Mannn oh Mann it’s been some time huh?? Well u just been working and playing my xbox so nothing really happen in life. Well as of yet anyway, I just got the new Final Fantasy XIII and I love it for many reasons.

Like from final fantasy X I was moved by the soundtrack and it’s the same for the new one because it’s soo smoothing! And the tattoo Idea I had would be one of the songs, the sheet music would be tatted on my arm or where ever. Bur besides the game!

Ummmm what else happen??? Well my ex been hitting me up lately outta the blue and I feel it’s awesome to get back into contact with her because it’s been a while since we last talked. So yeah were talking from here and there, and maybe in the future we will go out somewhere to chill.

Oohhhh I did get intel on a show well in other words performance!!!! :) the show should be in June I believe so in due time i’m going to work on a song that can be performed!!!! But I think that’s about that! Sorry for not being on here like I use to, I’m going to get back into the habit again :)

I remember all last year things weren’t flowing well at all!!! So much things happen all at once, and I was in a struggle. But seeing how I was unlocked from relationship, I’m seeing how everything is starting to look up for me. I finally have a job, I’m not getting stressed over anything and I’m just enjoying life. I would of never thought things would start to look up and I’m happy it is because the summer is right around the corner. 

The things that happen to me last year is 3 years of struggle but fit into one year. And I was 19, for a 19 year I was going thru things a 30 year old would go thru, and I must say that I def learned from everything that happen and that made me stronger and smarter when it comes to life. And shit man, I’m not going to rush into anything because the things last year were tough so I’m not going to rush into more issues like that.

Hmm so if tomorrow works out something just might happen. I wont mind at all either, it’s been a while since I last seen you but hopefully tomorrow is going to work. Were going to be alone, so we have the whole day to converse and get more infactuated with each other. I didn’t find anything wrong with u and I hope I don’t. Don’t let me think wrong of u. Cause I would be quick to leave.

Ok now for those who know me should know that I get annoyed easy, like right about now my damn eye is hurting for no damn reason and it’s getting me annoyed!!!!!! But that’s besides the point I’m trying to prove. I’m single and being in a relationship is kinda annoying because ur always wondering how the person is doing or what that person is doing. But even with the bads with a relationship we all still look for it. It’s something that we miss … . Like a certain feeling, were all cheesy but were not going to admit it lol.

Like two days ago I went to a concert and it would be even more awesome if I had a girl to bring but ehhhh! Well I’m going to get back to this post in the morning because I’m sleepy and my eye is pissing me off!!!!!

I was at the park today just for the hell of it and I sat down we sat on a random day. I didnt realize it until I sat down for a couple of minutes. And it’s funny I remember that because it was just a random day, but places in Ny well forever have memories which makes it hard for me to forget things. Like the wall on Cvs our names is still on, a little faded but you can still see it. Do ever wanted to know if the person you loved, they moved on but you wonder if they still care or think about you?? I do sometimes because of all the things I see around me. From train stations, the city and lil things like smells. This shit sucks cause it feels like I can’t escape from that year. Smh I need a drink for real….

Everyday I hear some great news when it comes to music!! And I mean like everyweek I hear something that’s great. People always told me to wait for everything to come to me because I’m going to be looking forward to it….. And it had man, god Is seeing how thankful I am to take care of my duties so I see in return I’m getting the things I been asking for. And he knows that i’m very thankful for everything he put me thru. Good and bad, from all the things that once happen to me he made me stronger….. And for a while I was thinking he wasn’t looking our for me but that while time I was wrong. I had to grow up and learn how to live on my own and to not always depend on people. It Also feels from what I’m saying now is how he feels about the things I was going thru. Mannnn….. My dream might be far but I can reach it when the time is ready!!! So as for now, I’m just waiting for things to fall into place. Thank you god

Next month on a certain day, I wonder if I’m going to get a phone call just for a hi…. I don’t think I am but if I do then I won’t be surprised. And if it don’t happen then I can see how much of control that person has over the other. And for some other gay reason I can sense something real shocking happening also…. It shocked one of my friends and that shit shocked me too. But I just wonder y’all…… I just wonder. I mean it won’t change anything because if I do get that call I’m going to be cursing that person out like no other. Im not in the mood to be fucked with so I rather want to be left alone….

Will it be sweet if I called you more than texting???

Would it be sweet If I showed you how I love you instead of saying it?

Would be be sweet if I tasted you? (Shit I would hope so)

Well it also be sweet if I tell you that, I love you for who you are, and not for your huge breast and nicely shaped ass?

Well you be mad if I didn’t show love on Valentines Day?? (You better not cause I show my love for the whole year.)

Well it be sweet if every song I wrote was about you in some way?

I know my poems are prolly a little stupid so I just should stick with rapping lol. But for some odd reason this been on my mind and this was the only way that I can express it. Those words were stuck in my head since I woke up this morning so I had to postpone the time I leave the house for only a couple of minutes to type this down. And since I’m done typing I’m going to head on to work. 

~Till Later on Today!!~