Murray Vs The World

So many emotions going thru my head and heart right about now…. I just did a break up and I don’t feel all that bad but I’m really sorry and worried for the person I heart broke. Heart breaking is just like murder, but I feel that it was best to do it now before I end up doing something stupid that can hurt double. I would have to say that break ups or arguments are the main two things I hate about a relationships.

We had some good and great times and even the bad and worse times, but honest feelings, it didn’t really feel like a relationship to me, I know that might sound harsh but I’m not going to lie. Don’t get me wrong tho I loved her but things had to stop. It wasn’t you or I it was us that was going thru issues but I do blame myself for putting you thru the pain…….

I had a dream about going to sleep!!!! Isn’t that just plain stupid???

It’s funny tho lol

Can you believe that Friday is going to be October 1st?? It felt like this month was only a week long lol wow september is wack!!!!!! Lol

The pictures you have up are degrading forreal … You have your pictures showing off your boobs and ass and the infamous Myspace up top view picture. And it’s prolly cause you want some male attention, but at the sametime your attracting dudes that’s crazy and horny. But before I get deeper let me tell you from a male’s POV on those kind of pictures.

Let’s say I’m a ghetto ass horny nigga looking at pics of girls on Myspace or Facebook and I come across a sexy girl blah blah. The first thing I’m going to do is speak my mind! I’m going to leave a comment on the picture because I’m thinking since she’s showing off her body I’m going to try and smash! And who knows she might be easy as pie yaa meen?

So when the dude leaves the comments, other dudes are going to leave some remarks also, at the end of the day you (The female) is going to get all mad at what the dudes are saying … . Why? Why Ghetto Girls? Your asking for something you don’t want… … And what I always say … . “That’s Sad”

Only if you waited and keep yourself closed, things woulda worked out perfectly… … But I wish you the best in your future.

The Rain … I just stare … Don’t come around me or you would get scared - I don’t know why but that I was told … Me looking dead is nothing old … ./ Wait … Lemme get it straight, the rain slow me down and I can not take … The pressure that is due … this is nothing new … It’s happens to me man, it happens to a few/ I stay in my house in any type of weather, when it looks like this I wear my LRG sweater/ Just incase I gotta go to the store … and when I’m pissed off … It just has to pour/ I don’t know why can someone please tell me… Crying like this all the time … I need your help/ I can barely stand by myself so … . all I ask is for your help.

This is a song that I recorded last year and I put it on my cd “Hackin’ Tha System” Me and the rain do not get along and it’s also thundering … … (Runs like a girl) lmao

Ok now this happens to me like two times outta the week! Someone would hit me up on Facebook chat or even Aim! It would take me about 10 seconds to reply and they just sign off! What was the reason of hitting me up if you was going to sign off! And what makes it really rude! You know how Aim have the door slam when someone leaves? That crap hurts lol From now on! If your going to hit me up don’t unless it’s a comment so you can reply some other time

Before I was in a Relationship … . .

I was all confused looking for love or looking for something that I thought I needed, But I didn’t really care if It wasn’t working out for me cause I was loving the attention I was receiving from my lady friends at the time. But then I did some reflecting back and realized how stupid and dog-ish I was. Cause maybe I wasn’t really looking for love, just a re bound seeing how my Ex did me … I guess that’s what it was. But as for now my whole act did a 360 because now I was looking for something serious and then found it. I’m just happy that from how I was before was a “before” and not a “now”

Before I came back to New York… . .

I was in a place where I didn’t need to be and that place is called “Job Corp” Some heard of it and some didn’t but it’s vocational program where you can pick up a trade and they pay you for everything. Yess It might sound like the dream but it’s not at all! But I learn from that place that I should never give up on things and for the things I have … . to make the best out of it. And even tho I was mature It made me even more mature seeing how I became dorm leader in less then a month. I was giving the task to demand 56 adults and make sure they were doing what they were suppose to do. And that alone was pretty cool cause I’m a fair person. But then after leaving that place, I was soo happy to come back into warm arms but I just got the cold shoulder (Shaking my head) I was in VA looking for employment and couldn’t find ANYTHING!!!! But sad to say I love it down there because I have all my privacy and it’s easy going out there. But being bored can bring evil deeds! but I’m not going to get into that maybe some other time! But I’m lazy to type more so most likely I’ll type a Part 2 to this blog!